In The Mind Of Zig-Zag

Makes you think

2010-01-03T22:07:00Z

Last night the fire hall siren was going off so long that my dog started to howl to it. She use to do it all the time when she was younger but now she only does it when it lasts a long time. Then we watched as fire truck after fire truck raced down our road. As we watched them go we could see a large orange glow coming from just down the road.

It was huge. So something large was on fire. We hoped it was one of the unused barns in the area. Not one of the used ones and not a house. It was so huge and bright it had to be a building.

Found out this morning that it was a house. It was a tralier but luckily the family of five who lived there is unharmed. They were at a party and according to the fire cheif it was a furance malfunction. What a horrible word that is. Malfunction.

Not a good way to start the new year. The scary thing is it could happen to anyone. I hope the family is in good hands tonight.

Happy new year one and all!

2010-01-02T19:59:53Z

My year has started out fairly well!

Yesterday work went pretty good and mom took me out to see Princess and the Frog - I now believe that maybe Disney could save themselves without Pixar. Maybe. It was awesome. I love the animation on the Shadow Man. He was so much fun to watch! Also made me realize I should watch more animated movies because then I can't pick them appart to much shot by shot.

After the movie we went out to this little resturant that we've never been too. Mostly because it's so expensive. We spilt a meal and it was delicious and just so nice to sit and relax. Even though I was doing my best to not nod off. I haven't been sleeping well.

Although the last night and the night before I finally slept enough that I could dream. And yay! Crazed dreams are back! I always miss my dreams when I'm not sleeping well.

Although it also told me I spend too much time thinking about the RP I'm in before falling asleep. As I was following around Vash as he tried to stop people from getting kidnapped and Kefka was behind the whole thing... and Wolfwood was there and punched Vash for a reason I don't really remember. I think he was one of the brainwashed people we found. And then I hurt my leg and played marter and let myself get caught so some girl I was helping to escape could get away. As at first the people doing the kidnapping didn't want me - but then I did something I shouldn't have been able to do... so they wanted me and by doing that whatever is how I hurt my leg... but either way then Vash was all upset because I had gotten myself caught. And... I don't even know anymore.

Happily Holidays

2009-12-26T23:40:54Z

Hope everyone had a good Decemeber. For me I dunno... it didn't really feel overly like Christmas. I think it was a combination of the freaky warm weather - so lack of snow and the fact that I wasn't in school. There was nothing really to mark the passage of time. It's all - get up - go to work - come home - fiddle with the computer - sleep. Rinse and repeat. Usually I would have been packing, finishing up projects, and trying to squeeze last minute fun in with friends.

I was pleased to find everyone seemed to really like the gifts I got them this year. Even Casey. I usually fail at getting her something good. Mom of course spent way too much money on us and was sad saying she didn't spend enough. I got Ghostbusters for the Wii, Spirit Tracks for the DS, a new digital camera (which according to mom it's a 150 dollar camera she got for 60.), the movie UP!, and I also got a surprise. A video camera. Mom said she knew I really would like one even though I didn't ask for one and this one was at such a cheap price she couldn't pass it up. Buuuuut... she gave it too me with the recipt taped to the back. Lol She said she realized that if it was at such a good price it probably wouldn't have what I want on it. *cough* Which it doesn't.

It lacks a manual focus. If I get a camera it HAS to have manual focus so I can do some rack focusing!! Lol. It a basic point and shoot camera which I could do with the digital camera. So I am going to return it. She told me to put the money towards my trip. Which she also gave me 100$ to put towards it. Aw. Mom's so sweet.

I think the most touching part of the day was mom and dad opening a card Casey and I got them. Nothing specail. We got a card and wrote a little something in it. Mine was: thanks for always being there for me and loving me no matter what kind of things I do and Casey's was along the lines of believing in her and helping her through college. Which mom and dad both got teary eyed over.

Later in the day Casey left to have dinner at her boyfriend's parents and mom and I went and visited her parents. Then today we had the party for my dad's side of the family. It was held at the fire hall again and it had good food as usual. Today marked the ten year aniversery of my grandmother's passing. Grandpa having passed away earlier that same year in August. One of my cousins wrote a really touching poem to mark the occation that left just about everyone teary-eyed and some of my aunts sobbing. It really was beautiful. Then we had a bit of bad news that next year with Christmas on Saturday it didn't look like we'd be able to have a Christmas party next year.

Because our family is so large we need a big space. Can't rent out the fire hall on Sunday's due to BINGO. The day before Christmas and Christmas is too busy for everyone and doing it any later then the twins who fly in wouldn't be there. But then my Cousin who has just taken over his dad's store came in and said that he would be happy to close his resturant on Sunday so that we can still get together. After all that way we wouldn't have to pay fees to rent a place. We should have been doing it all along he said. Everyone cheered.

Got the day off from work tomorrow. I look foward to sleeping in.

It's a classic!

2009-12-04T15:11:35Z

Here's video!

You... like me?

2009-12-02T00:47:06Z

Holy crap.

It's only been about two days since I dropped my videos on AMV.org and I really wasn't expecting much. And really not much has happened. But here's a breakdown because I'm beyond bored and have little else better to do. (except work on my unfinished AMV which I'm not sure I really want to fight with right now)

(click on names for AMV.org linkage)
A Hero's Gotta Do - Downloaded 8 times. Recived 4 stars
Dream of Angels - Downloaded 5 times. Recivied 4 stars
Unbreakable - Downloaded 5 times. Recivied 3 stars.

No opinions yet - but not really expecting any because I'm not pimping these videos and you really only get those on that site if you do that. So I'm mostly looking at the stars... which is the amzing thing to me...

(Youtube linkage - I am very bored XD)
A Hero's Gotta Do - Rated 4.25 out of 5 stars
Dream of Angels - Rated 4 out of 5 stars
Unbreakable - Rated 3 out of 5 stars

Buwh? I never get good star ratings on this site! O_o That's my very FIRST to EVER go beyond a 4 star. I'm not HORRIBLY (yes pun intended) surprised as it is a comedy using Dr. Horrible which I realize is what's giving it the big rating - not so much my editing. But Dream of Angels is very shocking to me. I've gotten 4s before but they disapear by the third star rating and drop closer to a 3. Unbreakable is what I typically do. So that one is no shock at all.

But the other two? Holy hell. I knew being a comedy the one would get a very high three - possibly four. But I'm completely dumbfounded that Dream of Angels is still holding onto it's 4 star rating. (And of course the one I was most proud of is coming in last. XD)

Hm... what's the highest rated one besides those two?

PPPPPPPFFFFFTTTFFFFFT!.... Kenshin's Scar? Realllllllllllllllllllllly? -_- Obviously I need to ditch Vegas and go back to Windows Movie maker. Granted... Bloody Valentine (youtube) and Dancing with Wolves (youtube) ties for second which makes me feel a LITTLE better. Those two are at least semi decent with An Unorthodox Hero (youtube) coming in third.

A Nightmare?

2009-12-01T14:46:20Z

Last night I awoke to a horrible sound. A horrible, chilling, EVIL sound.

It was loud and rumbly and came with flashing yellow lights!!!!

Was there a plane crashing? A crazed psycho tractortralier driver going the wrong way?

No... it was.... DUN DUN DUUUUUUUUUHHHHN a snow plow! *cryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy*

And then this morning I woke up to a white world. *sniff* *sob* *cry*

Although granted I'm really not that upset by the snow. It had to come sometime and thanks to global warming we missed out on a month of it already. Still a bit shocked we got through Novemember without any snow. It's crazy.

And it is now raining. So that's taken care of most of it so far.

In other news mom and I picked out our Chirstmas tree yesterday. For years we used a fake one but last year we got a real one now that mom's allergies are under control and can stand pine again. So we got a real one this year too. And I think we got one of the best on the lot. It's beautiful. I'll have to remember to take pictures once it's up and decortated!

What to do about pets?

2009-11-30T15:02:06Z

I'm not sure what's wrong with my dog this morning. I woke up and I can hardly remember a time when she seemed more depressed. Normally when I wake up she comes running happy to see movement and asking to go to the bathroom.

Today. She didn't move. Didn't even lift her head. Just looked up at me with really sad looking eyes. I can't even get her leg to kick when I scratch her tummy. She just sighs.

It also makes me think she pooped in the house but I've looked all over and found nothing.

I wish I knew why she's so sad. She was acting normal all day yesterday.

So I'm sitting in the living room with her instead of my bedroom with the cat who's upset and keeps coming out to find me - to find me with the dog. So upset she's thrown up.

I can't win today.

Edit: Puppy seems to be back to normal again. Not sure what her funk was earlier today. Bad dream maybe? Also found out someone got up early to let her out so that's why (thankfully) she didn't poop in the house and wasn't intersted when I offered.

AMVs for download

2009-11-30T01:13:52Z

So I didn't make my goal; but here is a very small treat. The last three AMVs I made fit AMV.orgs requirement of having 'anime' in it. So I took the time tonight to post all three on there. If you'd like here they are for download! It's a free sight just need to make an account!

A Hero's Gotta Do
Dream of Angels
Unbreakable

Guess who's a big girl today and hates it?

2009-11-28T03:06:59Z

...got my first student loan bill in today. Yay?

*sighs* Goodbye 70 dollars a month. I knew ye well!

And this is only the first of like... ten. Could six months really have gone by already? *sighs* College is expensive.

Youtube Firday!

2009-11-27T16:16:45Z

Have a feeling I posted this already. But it's a good one so if I did: Have it again!

And sorry I haven't been around much. I just haven't had much intersting to post. I pretty much get up - go to work - come home and fart around with the AMV or play WOW, while tagging here and there in this RP I got into.

And as for the lack of AMV snippit - it's that I've been mostly working on the ending to which I dunno XD I don't really want to show too much of. Even though I know without the rest of the video it won't make much sense. Ah! I'm weird like that!

...that also being said is that although I'm working on the ending most of the beginning in middle have nothing done to it. FFVII-AC is really kicking my Vegas's ass and it takes forever to do a little bit. I doubt I'll be making my 3 vids in one month challenge but it sure was fun to try!

It also didn't help that I caught a cold a few days back. Almost completely lost my voice for a day there. And when I'm sick it's very hard to think creatively. Ah well! I probably should have picked a less hetic month to do it in. XD Maybe I'll try again a couple months down the road.

FML

2009-11-21T12:21:50Z

I really wish I could explain how much I hate my brain right now.

Last night I got offered extra hours. 7 last night which left me working: 2-9pm and then 8 today working 8:30am-5pm. So basically I got home just in time last night to go to bed.

How I wish I slept during that time.

But my brain was in freak out mode for some reason. And I dreamed that I had this rack and everytime I thought it was empty I would look and see there was another item on it. When I was awake if felt like all my nerve endings were on well... not fire... hm. High alert? I could not be still. I could not calm down.

So now. I'm up with almost no sleep and SHOCK I can feel my cold coming back. I'm so tired it's making me feel sicker than I think I really am. Makes me want to call into work but I need the hours. That and I know I'm only 90% over tired and 10% sick. And if I call in now and then end up just feeling better shortly after that won't make me happy either.

I'm just so tired right now.

-_-

2009-11-21T04:03:17Z

My cat just fell off the bed three times in the past hour.

Yeah. Methinks she's getting old. And yet - she STILL won't stop walking on the very edge of the bed. WTF cat. W.T.F.

Youtube Firday!

2009-11-20T15:38:17Z

It's fun to see where insperation to things come from!

In other news! I'm feeling much better today. Not 100% but not nearly as crappy as I did yesterday.

Our power went out yesterday too. Twice. Once it went off while dad and I were in the city for his doctor appointment. It had just come back on when we got home as the clock was flashing: 12:01.

Then around 9pm last night it cut out again. It was intersting to be in the complete darkness. Even the streetlights were out. I never realized how much of a glow those two gave off. And dad was nuts because he was so very bored without his TV.

I enjoyed a night huddled under the blankets playing some DS. With a candle glowing next to me!

Stupid work

2009-11-19T14:44:19Z

So work called asking me to come in. And part of me wanted to jump on the extra hours.

...the sick part wanted me to tell them they could shove their eight hours up their butts.

I mean I was really looking forward to my day off. More so now that yes - I AM indeed sick with a head cold but MONIES!

In the end I told them no - I had to take dad to the doctors. (Which I do.)

Part of me is like: WHOOO HOO! THE DAY IS MINE and the other part is still: ;_; My money!

Snippit Ahoy!

2009-11-18T04:19:53Z

Yup. Gone insane

2009-11-17T02:08:44Z

First! Snippit! ....Seph has some big ass lips.

Which has now been replaced!

And then crack! (see. I TOLD you Zack is totally willing to be in AMVs)

See. That's what happens when AC crashes my editing program over and over. I go batshit insane.

I R Nerd?

2009-11-16T20:20:32Z

So I was watching Let's Make a Deal.

So here's the deal.

There's a couple. They were allowed to pick two wallents out of three. Two are empty (although there was actually money in the others) and one has a dollar bill. If they find the dollar bill they get this awesome trip.

But they were also offered a sure thing. For the wallets they could trade for a

PERSONALY EDITING PROGRAM!!!!

O_o *drool* Sh-shiny.

An UNDERWATER video camera. A brand new mac computer.

And...

and...

ANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNND!

O_o FINAL CUT PRO 4!

Final. Fucking Cut Pro. 4

The geek in me screemed: TAKE IT! TAKE IT NOA!

They did win the trip in the end. But I honestly think I would have been happier with the home editing system. Psh. Although I doubt they could have used Final Cut Pro. As it is a more complex system. While Advid is what is mostly used in the professional feild. Final Cut Pro is the other system they tend to use.

;_; I want.

Pretending to be deep

2009-11-16T17:04:46Z

Excuse the deep thoughts about home and a life time under the cut. Yes! It's ramble time!

So I've been cleaning my room here and there. And thinking about moving. And I'm not just moving - I'm moving out of the country. So I've realized that I really can't realistically even get half of the things I've collected throughout my lifetime over there. So I've been trying to keep the mantra: Downsizing for a better life!

So I've been looking things over. Trying to decide if I really need to hang onto things anymore. I'm quite proud of myself. For being a recovering pack rat I've actually let go a good couple boxfuls of random stuff. There's still a LOT more to go I'm afraid - but I'm working on it.

Of course part of the fun of also letting go of things is I actually have room for the things I WANT to keep. Like photo albums and such. I got rid of some of the books I realized I have lost interst in. They were books from childhold (like my collection of Poney Pal books) or other books I realize I have no plans to go back and re-read. Like my Harry Potter books.

I got rid of so many that I finally had a room to put my large photo album from Australia in there instead of sitting randomly on top of my desk. So while I was moving a couple things around I found my year book from senior year and my highschool diploma. And on top of that? Inbetween the two was my black belt certificate. I had forgotten about I had put those things there.

Flipping though the yearbook made me remenise - surprised how much things can change. 2004... it's only been 5 years but it all also seems so long ago. Looking thouhgh the pictures made me both miss highschool a little - but not much. I'm usually on the edge trying to join it; but you can tell the others in the photo probably don't even know I'm there. There are a few pictuers of me as a group with other people but only one or two.

I think the baby pictues is what really got me in this mood. 23 years on this earth and that little girl in that photo has no idea what is about to happen to her. 23 years gone in the blink of an eye.

I sometimes wonder if I'm really happy the way life turned out. I think I am. There are a few things I would change but not too much. I mean if I hadn't lost most of my friends in high school would Autumn and I be as good of friends we are today? If I hadn't been dyselxic would I not have my understanding and paitents when other people don't quite get things right away? If I had really enjoyed highschool and I no longer felt the need to get as far away from that life would I have still gotten to Australia? Would I have joined APO? Would I have all the friends I have now? If I hadn't lost so much of my self confidence and worth would I have continued to play sports at school with my fellow classmates or would I have still taken Taekwondo? Would I have ever gotten a black belt?

No. I don't think I would.

I am me. I'm not perfect. But I am who I am. I miss the me that I was but look foward to seeing the me I could be. I hope she's nice!

Ahaha.... very funny playlist. I swear I didn't do that on purpose.

I'm highly amused...

2009-11-16T03:33:16Z

...that most of the reviews Unbreakable (last AMV) is getting are people going: I don't like FF but nice video!

XD Soooo I attact people who don't like FF but not the people that do.

How did I do this?

Stupid Vegas

2009-11-15T04:56:33Z

Vegas haaaaaaaaaaaates me. Tonight's snippit is all I basically got done. Because one of my raw footage got all corrupted and made vegas crash all the time. Stupid Vegas. Then when I got that problem fixed - it decided it would crash just for fun.

I did work on something else. Trying a bit of effects in this to make something look the way I want. Don't think it's going to work though. We shall see. So uh.... snippit! Aka... all there is!

NO BRAIN! BAD! STOP! ...I don't need you trying to make Cloud!crack happen...

2009-11-15T02:55:34Z

Betrayed by my own brain. ;_; I did the Dr. Horrible one already!

Considering I was thinking at work how my brain really seems to be split. By the part I control and the part it controls on it's own. And how it will do as it very well sees fit. Usually it tends to win. Although I seemed to be getting some control back - at least with those nightmares I had about a month back where I finally took control back.

But no. A bit ago it wanted to remind me how it rules. So I've started my next video and it's to Breaking Benjamin's Give me a Sign. And I'm a total failure at naming my AMVs (whiteadelphi named the last one XD) and the working title for this video is called Project 2. (XD Snippit to come later!) Joking with WA I said: at least I didn't call it Give Cloud a Sign.

And then my brain grabbed that and went running. Before I blinked this was going through my stupid little crack head:

Cloud saw the sign!
And it opened up his eyes!

And because in the video I'm working on now (a serious video) and if you take it literally with the lyrics and title it's basically Zack ~~showing~~ giving Cloud the sign. Soooooooo of course now Zack is the SIGN OF ALL!

Cloud saw the Zack
And it opened up his eyes! He saw the Zack.

-_-;; I hate the part of my brain that says I could totally make this work. Because I'm more believing my rational side that says I'd WAY overwork this and make it suck. SO SHUT UP CRACK!BRAIN TRY AGAIN!

Friday the 13th?

2009-11-13T15:47:49Z

It's always disturbing to see an ambulance sitting in your neighbor's yard. Even more disturbing when it's you 80+ year old great aunt and uncle's house.

He's okay. Apparently a sore he had on his leg started to bleed - pretty badly. So the ambulance was called and now he's okay. Still took him up to the hospital as a percausionary but he's okay from what I'm told.

It's strange. My aunt Mavis and uncle Kent I can never picture as dying even though they are really old. They've been my neighbors nearly all my life and I use to go over all the time to play over there. (They had a paved drivway - it was epic compared to our stone one. XD) They were always out there to play and watch us. And they're always walking around out in the back feild. I see them now and then when I'm walking Egor.

So it's weird for me to think of them as being sick. It's just... somethign that's hard to imagin.

Youtube Firday!

2009-11-13T13:24:34Z

For YouTube Friday I thought I'd post one of the first AMVs I ever saw. This is one of those videos that made me go: Oh man... I want to be as good as THAT some day!

Cloud is a stair master failure

2009-11-12T02:02:34Z

Here it is! 1/3 of the AMVs I'm making this month. Gah! Much farther into the month then I'd hope to be. Something tells me this isn't going to happen but I'll keep at it. Next one is going to make me want to eat my brain as it's focusing mostly on Advent Childern and that film likes to kill Vegas a lot. And each time I move one frame it needs like a good full two minutes to process I've moved before I can continue.

*sighs* This is going to be painful.... but for now - THIS Amv!

Song: I Will Not Bow
Artist: Breaking Benjamin
Footage: Crisis Core with just a pinch of Advent Childern tossed in.

And no... I don't know WHY Cloud falls down the damn stairs in every video I make. I should totally make myself an icon on it.... but I'm too damn lazy right now. He's just really good at falling down them I guess!

Watch in high quality if it gives you the option. You'll need it.

Not a snippi!

2009-11-11T05:44:10Z

XD Psssssssssssssssssssshhhh I'm an idiot.

This was SUPPOSE to be a post about my shiney new AMV.

But I'm an idiot. The video is finished except.... for one clip that was only meant to be a place holder.

Hah..... hahaha.

Well shit.

*cough* Video tomorrow once I replace that one clip. I have an idea what I'm switching it with so it shouldn't take TOO long. I'm just XD Yeah... it takes close to two hours to render... it's nearly 1am and I have work tomorrow.

Yeah. I sleep now. *thunk*